foreigner

Funny how things have a way of coming full circle.   I'm no longer lying about the weight that was documented on my drivers licence at the age of 17!  Very exciting, but also a little unnerving. 

I do feel completely exposed and awkward with my rapidly changing body.  It's a little like walking around with your skirt tucked into your pantyhose and KNOWING it.  People notice.  It's not like I don't appreciate the compliments.  For gawd sakes, I would have never let my picture be plastered in almost every major paper in the country if I didn't want people to notice.  However, my body feels foreign to me.  My legs cross with ease, my knees knock together when I walk, I can run without giving myself a concussion.  Do I like these things?  YAH HAH!  It's just a completely WEIRD.


This is the lightest I have been in all my adult life.  This is not a place I'm returning to, it's a place I've never been. (insert JAWS attack music here and await the scream)!